I don’t know what to write. I’ve spent most of the day flailing around, exhausted. Sometimes on days like today I get terrible sleep.
Normal people… well what do normal people do in this situation. I usually drink twice as much coffee. Then try to take a nap. Followed by sitting in front of the computer like a zombie muttering profanities.
Once that gets boring I move on to worrying. I won’t get what I need to done. I’m a failure, etc. and so on.
Lately I’ve noticed there’s a better option. It’s painful but it involves gently reminding myself to be present. If I can hold the attention for long enough the downward spiral stops. In that moment I can ask: what one thing can I do that will make today ok?